Ctrl-Alt-Del

It takes alot alot of courage for me to erase people from my memory bank. Usually even after the person is long gone i still keep traces of their existence in my heart disk. letters, photos, text messages, emails, facebook, msn.... i did some spring cleaning recently and decide to control alternate delete a bad virus that's been lingering and hovering around me for the past few years...I guess they can never be completely erased if it's too deeply embedded in the system. But at least it can stop the virus from paralysing and causing disruption to my life.

Into the Wilderness

I usually write blogs only when I'm really really disturbed or really really free.

没想到绕了一大圈还是回到另一个旷野。回到原点。

祷祰了五年，上帝终于把我从旷野中救了出来。在曹府那儿呆了不到半年却又陷入旷野的状况。。。结果还被恶人列入黑名单踢出曹府。

在这里不知不觉的已经有五十天了。前四十天还以为会死在“法老王”的手下，被 stressed 出病来。现在法老回法国度假去了，我这才可松下一大大口气。。。走出了埃及现在又仿佛走进了旷野似的。每天在旷野里，陪伴着我的就只有Hewlett，想问问它每天对着我会无聊吗？就像我每天对着它有时无聊到很想揍它，踢它。天啊！这样的日子到底要到什么时候才可结束呢？在这里忙的时候，连厕所都没时间去。闲的时候却长长想上。忙的时候没时间去吃饭，闲的时候连苍蝇都可以当饭吃。在这样下去的话，我想我迟早会得心脏病或神经病。可能这就是因为白天太闲了，晚上放工的时候就拼命的去找事做，找人聊天吃饭，找机会侍奉。感觉上好像生活上有一点颠倒似的。真不想再这样下去了。想啊想的。。。当老师的念头又出现了。。。hmmmm

云不动我不动,云动我动

"Throughout all their journeys, whenever the cloud was taken up from over the tabernacle, the people of Israel would set out. But if the cloud was not taken up, then they did not set out till the day that it was taken up. For the cloud of the LORD was on the tabernacle by day, and fire was in it by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel throughout all their journeys." Exodus 40:36-40

云，好像很久都没动了。。。